Happy.

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I'm sorry I'm not perfect and I'm sorry I can't do shit right.
I'm sorry I'm not the child you wanted to know.
I'm sorry my feelings are always so fucking hollow
And I'm sorry that I can't run off on my own,
But this place is so empty without you here,
You left me.
I'm so alone.
I guess I always knew you would.
Just wished it hadn't happened so soon...
I've tried so many damn times, and failed miserably.
I want to sever all my ties with this world,
But unfortunately, without a soul,
I have no where to fucking go.
You don't know how hard I try, and you can't see how hurt I am,
By my worthless endeavor for acceptance.
I'm sorry that I didn't stop caring about your opinion sooner,
Because it would've saved me a life time of depression.
Why did you even have me?
Why couldn't my existence have been avoided?
No matter where I go or where I've gone,
Normality and love is something I just don't know.
I'd be better off laying down somewhere to rot,
But it wouldn't make me any less horrid; Now would it?
It's hopeless for me,
Sitting here every damn day,
Worrying about what you've prayed for.
Too bad your God doesn't seem to care if I die or not,
So he lets me stay and try again and again.
What do you want from me?
I can't change.
My heart might be less persistent then yours,
Only beating every once in a while,
But it cracks just as easily
It's solid.
It something I'm familiar with,
And maybe no soul in habits my body,
But if I had one it sure as hell wouldn't matter;
It'd be just as filled with sorrow.
I tried to be perfect,
It just wasn't worth it.
I don't want to see your smile anymore,
It just reminds me of what I'm incapable of doing.
Being...
Happy.

(( Um...Okay so I was venting/having some really bad thoughts, but then my friend texted me which caused me to see my screen saver. Well, my screensaver is of a picture my amazing friend, Hakiwan, drew and it reminded me someone cares for me. It turned my tears into nothing but faded trails and it turned my frown upside down ;u; But, yeah, I just edited some of the lines and made it fit Alfred, 'cause...well, he's /very/ depressed. He doesn't show it much though.))
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Ask-BritanniaAngel
*Embraces you, involving your head in his chest tightly* ...D-Damn it. If you're feeling down, don't hesitate to come to me... git.
I didn't say that I'm on your side...?





 [[ sdkjhsdgj *hugsyouforever* OF COURSE I CARE ABOUT YOU...! Q A Q
Alfregit is the most important person to me~! \(ºヮº)/

S-So... umm... I will not let you have bad thoughts. When you think of something bad, I'll come with a lot of sparkles and then make you forget that ♥ > 3 <)b



And yep- Arthur comes out of nowhere when Al is upset ''8D *runs*]]